Day 69 Gulp.

That emotional see-saw struck again. I started out the day SO well, making myself some gloriously green veggie brimming soup to eat for lunch. But then as the day progressed by about 3pm I was thoroughly depressed, miserable, and despite holding out for a long time (several hours) I finally gave in to profligate eating, and making, and consuming of lots of chocolate, nuts and bread products.

Day's total stands at 4701 calories, I haven't bothered with the Syns.

I also didn't go swimming at lunchtime, nor in the evening, by which time I was comatose on the sofa, sleeping off my late afternoon gorge.

Good things here. I did think quite seriously about getting drunk to forget. I didn't, thank goodness - a sore head this morning on top of a tender stomach - hmm not the most joyous of starts. Other good things - my chest muscles are a tad sore, as are my leg muscles - that's a GOOD sign, that I have been working them, and that the fibres have been busy realigning themselves into proper muscle! I slept plenty. And I've posted about this. I did consider missing out a day. However detailing my struggles is as important as detailing my successes. I can only hope as my journey goes forward, these kinds of days will become less and less, and the successful days will number more and more. :)

Food list for today:
Breakfast - 1 cup Sainsbury's hooplas cereal with milk & 1 mug tea
Snack - I cup broccolli, lentil, spinach, leek soup
Lunch - big spinach salad, 1 pitta & half tub taramasalata, rosehip tea
mid-afternoon snack - bowl of peanuts, pecans, walnuts, dried fruit, pumpkin & sunflower seeds, and an apple
dinner - 2 quorn sausages, half tin of baked beans with sausages, 2 eggs fried in 1 tsp olive oil, half baked potato
Evening eating - 4 pittas & whole tub of hummos, a whole pan of chocolate rice krispie cake, 2 mugs roobios tea

Okay. Misdeeds accounted for. Today I can only do better. :)