A happy surprise

The last couple of days I've been down in the dumps because my scales showed me an unpleasant figure: 23 stone. Eek! That is 322 lbs. I have been neglecting myself in favour of work. I forgot that I come first, and have been putting all my energy into creating miracles for others. Which is allright to do, so long as I am also benefiting, something I forgot.

That number was a icy splash in the face for me. And it left me feeling morose and despondent for a few days. And I have to say, I didn't behave at all well in that time, eating chocolate, carbs and nuts like they were about to become extinct foodstuffs! Yesterday evening though, I decided enough. And today is a new day. I am living today, yesterday is old news. So, last night I drank lots of water, and went to bed, vowing to myself that every morning is a new chance, a new beginning, a chance to treat my body and myself with love and respect. I adjusted my mini goals to reflect this.

Today I am 46 years old. Today I also weigh 22 stone and 12 lbs. And that was after having breakfast! I don't know what miraculous thing occurred overnight, but I am very grateful. A two pound loss! Thank you Universe. This has given me the impetus to keep the day going well.

When I was 40, I decided to give up smoking. It took me a couple of years to stop feeling the cravings, and there were occasional sneaky puffs. However, today I am decidedly a non-smoker, and my lungs are much healthier for it. I believe I can also become a fit, healthy, active person too. She IS there, somewhere inside me.

I found this little snippet on my desktop today. It is a good list to think about as I go forward. I'm sorry I don't know where it came from, but whoever it was from I am sure they will be pleased that their words are helping another person become a happy, healthy and vibrant being. I've paraphrased her words to fit me.

"I deserve to eat food that has been prepared with love and kindness."
"I deserve the man who loves me unconditionally and joyously, and who loves that I love him unconditionally and joyously."
"I deserve to have a career that supports me emotionally, mentally, spiritually AND financially."
"I deserve to care for myself in a way that supports my well-being."

And here are a few words from Danielle La Porte:
"You are worthy of your desires. Really wanting what you want gives you the power to get it.
You were born free. The more you try to earn your freedom the more trapped you become.
You are worthy of love and respect. Lovable."

And I like this list of hers too:
"You deserve:
eye contact
smiles in the morning
food made with pure intention
clean drinking water, fresh air
Hello, Please and Thank you
time to think about it
a chance to show them what you're made of
a second chance
an education
healthcare, including dental
multiple orgasms
weekends and the summer off
8 hours of sleep
play before work
to change your mind
to say no
to say yes
to be seen
to be loved for what is seen

You deserve all this just because you showed up.
You're that monumental.

What's on your mind these days about what you deserve and what you don't?"

I've had phonecalls, texts and birthday cards from my friends and family today, so I know I am loved. And that is a wonderful thing.

How I feel like today! copyright here

It is a funny thing too, today. My cat has been extra specially loving this morning, and wanting lots of hugs and snuggles. Heh - good vibes are in the air today!